sigh.
i got my period this morning after a night of little sleep due to the intense amount of both pain and anxiety i was feeling. i wanted so badly to believe that the spotting i had yesterday was implantation bleeding, but deep inside i knew it wasn't. i woke up about a zillion times during the night with awful cramps and nausea. and, sure enough, my period came on full force this morning. i've never had pms like this in my life until the past year or so. it is so frustrating, but i guess i have to shift my understanding of what's normal. suddenly, feeling shitty all the time seems to be what's normal for me. pretty infuriating.
so i look on the bright side, what little there is. i'm having a birthday party this weekend, and unlike on my actual birthday on sunday i will be DRINKING. and next weekend will likely be when i'm ovulating, and the hubby and i will be in florida for several days for a family wedding... which will provide much nicer accommodations for TTC than our last few tries in the construction zone. so. bright side it is. at least i'm trying.
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