in the shower this morning i was having imagination nightmares that the doctor would call and tell me that there'd been some catastrophic event where my eggs imploded upon the addition of the sperm and that we were back to zero and this whole thing was a waste of everyone's time. if you can believe it, that's not what happened. in fact, we have FIVE fertilized little embryos! it is so strange to think about there being tiny little multicellular creatures made up from my dna & the hubby's, just floating around in the lab at the hospital. but i'm so glad they're there!
from what i've read, it seems like typically between 75-80% of eggs retrieved are fertilized, so we were a little on the low side. but hey, five is five more than i had before. even if they don't all make it to transfer (which they likely won't) it appears that we'll definitely at least have something to work with. i'm actually kind of glad that we didn't prove to be Super Fertilizers, because maybe that's the issue that's been plaguing us all along. with only a couple of eggs at most in these past couple of years of cycles, maybe our stuff just couldn't fertilize... but with the increased odds and with assistance of the lab perhaps we've overcome that obstacle. i'd like to believe that, anyway, to prevent me from going into the transfer with the worry that our issue has been implantation and that we won't be successful this time, either. i know it's best to wipe all of those negative thoughts out of my mind... i guess that's why they've prescribed me valium to take before and after the transfer! ha!
the doctor said we should come in on thursday (day three of the embryo growth process) and we'll see if it's time to do the transfer. he anticipates yes, but if all of the embryos are still developing well, there's a chance they will postpone the transfer until saturday to try to get some blastocysts (the advanced stage of development that has a much better chance of implanting). there's no way to know this for sure until it happens, so we'll just go on thursday expecting that they'll do the transfer then, and we'll discuss numbers to transfer and if there's any good enough to freeze at that time. right now they're just waiting and seeing how things progress. but this is certainly a good start and there's no reason to believe that anything disastrous will happen between now and thursday.
today i feel totally fine post-retrieval, now that the sedative has worn off, and i started the antibiotic and the progesterone oil injection to prep for the transfer. the oil injection is super weird... it doesn't hurt at all, but it is so hard to inject because it's so thick. really strange. otherwise today is a normal day... it's just that there are tiny embryos of mine growing and developing across town. so weird.
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