Six weeks

Tomorrow I'll be six weeks along and it is starting to feel real. I still don't think I'll rest easy until Thursday's ultrasound when we should see the heartbeat, but each passing day is a step in the right direction. My beta level was above 5000 on Thursday, which is much higher than the minimum level they were looking for. It's supposed to increase by 60% every two days, so since it was 534 at the first test it should have been at least 2800 or so 7 days later. Clearly things are progressing well. And the rapidly multiplying hormone counts probably also are responsible for my continuing "morning sickness." I can't tell if things are getting better on that front or if I'm just adapting to it. I'm wearing Sea Bands - those acupressure wristbands people wear for motion sickness - and they may be helping. I still feel nauseated anytime I move around or eat... or don't eatfor too long. But the in-between times seem to better, and my baseline level of nausea seems to be a bit less awful. But at this point I'm terrified for it to go away, because it's my assurance that things are still going well. That, and my other assorted symptoms: fatigue, crazy-ass mood swings, and boobs so sore I have to keep them tightly wrapped 24/7. I've read that people who have early morning sickness are less likely to miscarry, so I have to say I'm clinging to all of this. And i know I'll feel better after Thursday's ultrasound... once there's a heartbeat they say early miscarriage rates drop. It just feels like such a long road of uncertainty ahead right now. Don't get me wrong, I'm still so happy and excited! I just can't wait to feel a tiny bit more confident that our dream really is coming true.