got the results of the bloodwork, and they indicate that i did ovulate. so it's the monitor that's a little bit off. i guess out of the three (my own body sense, the numerous medical assessments, and the monitor) it makes sense that it's the thing that isn't totally on top of things. i'm assuming i ovulated yesterday, which is why my temp hasn't gone up yet. so fine. timing of this round was ok. not perfect like last time, but ok. they want me to start the dreaded progesterone suppositories tonight (whimper) and then i go back next monday to start getting prepped for possible IVF.
i had a lovely acupuncture session this afternoon, too. i like that we do something different each time. it reinforces my belief that he really knows what he's doing and that he tailors my treatments to the time in my cycle and what else is going on with me. he could tell (of course) by "scanning" my body as he calls it (basically just holding his hands over different parts of me) that i had some blockages that caused me to have a wicked headache and some digestive issues over the weekend. which i totally had, and blamed on my body adjusting to various hormonal changes. he spent a long time figuring out where the most severe blockages were the treated only those today (three spots: two on my feet and one on my head) and then also did some work on my back for the first time. he says the back is the way to target the causes of the physical symptoms: the fears, anxieties, feelings that create problems in the first place. it felt much more targeted and technical-seeming than any other treatment i've had with him: there was a lot of consulting manuals and charts and measuring where certain spots were on my body in relation to other spots. i'm fascinated with the whole process.
he said that i'm responding really well to treatments and that he can already sense the changes in my body. i can too -- last week when the temperature dropped down into the 60s i think i reacted to those temps like normal people do instead of remaining my usual sweaty self! it was amazing. that balancing out of my yin and yang (cool and heat) is one of our biggest goals... i'm too hot and dry. he told me that water -- both literal and metaphorical -- is what i need more of in my body to calm and balance me, and that one way i can increase that in the metaphorical realm is to have more time to myself. meditative and calm = water. we talked about my age-old habits of overscheduling and overtaxing myself, and how i load myself down with "fun" social things in an attempt to try to balance out the amount of time i spend working, but that it's counterproductive. he wants me to do less and "be" more. i know it sounds like hippie nonsense but i get it. i really do. and i know he's right.
so what am i doing this afternoon? well, i'm working my ass off on school stuff that just can't be avoided. but tonight i get to sing my heart out at choir and then the rest of the week is relatively peaceful. we'll see how i do with this meditative calm stuff. not exactly my thing... but hey -- not much i've done these past few months has come easily or naturally.
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