two-week wait

it's been a bit of a rollercoaster the past 24 hours but i am feeling fine now. perhaps because i was finally allowed to have actual, real sex and boy, did i need it!

this morning my ovulation monitor still didn't think i was ovulating. it has given me a "high fertility" but not "peak" sign for the past several days. though i knew this was slightly illogical, i was completely freaked out that the doctor had gotten it wrong and that we did the inseminations way too early. when i took my temperature it seemed to indicate that i did ovulate. and i suppose it makes sense that blood tests and sonograms/ultrasounds (wtf is the difference? the docs use them interchangeably) are better predictors than peeing on a stick at the demand of a $200 over-the-counter product. and, indeed, i went to the doctor and she said that i did ovulate, and that everything looked great. huh. i guess i don't need to use the monitor anymore... i had a hunch that the hormones i'm pumping myself full of might screw it up, and i assume that's what's happened. again i wonder if it might have screwed us up in months past... but i'm not dwelling on that, either.

so now we embark on another two-week wait. i go back two weeks from yesterday (wednesday the 31) for the blood test unless i get my period first, which i doubt will happen. i start the progesterone on saturday, so i can look forward to more stomach aches. and that's that! i am going to do my darnedest to think about it only productively and not to get too wrapped up in the wait. at least i've got back-to-school to keep me busy!