39 weeks, 5 days & still pregnant

still here! i've basically led a completely normal life during the latter part of this week. after staying home on tuesday and making myself INSANE, i decided to work the rest of the week and i'm glad i did. i'm a little tired but otherwise i actually feel a lot better than i did last week and the week before. i still have a lot of pelvic and groin pressure and i am slow-moving and a little achy and sore, but really i've been mostly able to do about my business. i was totally useless at home... couldn't motivate to do anything other than obsess over minuscule, unimportant details and got so cranky that the hubby came home from work and said he wasn't going to talk to me for a few minutes until i got myself under control. it has been much better to be back at work. i'm definitely tired from only getting about 7 hours of sleep a night, but i can handle it and i know i will catch up this weekend (unless there is some other action going on in my life!!!).

i go to the high risk doc this afternoon for a growth assessment so we'll see what kind of a giant baby he's going to be whenever he gets here. i wonder if that will affect any induction plans? if i'm still pregnant on monday, that's when i go back to the OB and she'll strip my membranes. a colleague told me yesterday that she would never, ever do that again because it was so painful and awful, but i'm trying to put that out of my mind. i know i'd rather try something like that than medical induction, so if that's what it comes to i will try to welcome it openly. but i am really hoping the baby will come on his own this weekend.

i've been scouring the internet and soliciting stories from others about how they felt right before they went into labor -- looking for any possible clues or signs that i can apply to myself -- but the only conclusion i can come to is that it's completely different for everyone and often for every pregnancy. so i guess even though last week i thought i "felt" like it was going to happen any time, i don't really know what that "feeling" is, and i have to be aware that it could still happen any time even though i now feel mostly normal. so that's that! i'm distracting myself as much as possible and just waiting... waiting...