a nonchalant Round 9! and other stuff.

so... we decided to TTC again this month. to heck with it, right? by the time the 24-hour waiting period following my procedure had ended, it was the night of my first peak fertility day, so we hit that day and the morning following my ovulation window. but i have to say that i don't think this was as much an attempt to TTC as it was just us... getting busy. our sex life has been constrained by rules lately, even more than usual. we had a mandatory abstinence period prior to his first semen analysis, and by then i had my period, and then we weren't allowed to in between when i got my period and the hysterosalpingogram. so... it had been awhile. i don't think this will be a tremendously hopeful cycle, since we're fairly confident now that this whole thing will be pretty damn difficult. but... as least we had some fun, right?

i've also done some non-researchy research about adoption the past few days. since we're in the information-collecting stage. i have a friend from high school who's in the process of adopting a four-year-old girl from russia, and a former colleague/friend from north carolina who adopted a newborn over the summer. both of them have been more than forthcoming about their experiences and have provided me with a lot of food for thought. much like conception has been for us, the reality of adoption is much less romantic than one thinks before learning something about it. of course it's a risk anytime someone decides to become a parent, but the risks with adoption scenarios are kind of terrifying. but. we're not there yet, so i'm just taking in some details and saving them for a time when i might need to process them further.

in the meantime, the hubby and i had a wonderful weekend setting up the house and just generally enjoying one another's company, which was so needed and so appreciated. i feel dramatically better than i did a week ago today, and for the moment am perfectly content to take things as they come and not get caught up in over-dramatizing, over-planning or over-thinking. for once.